IC Contact Post For Tushanshu & Nematon

[skybluejeep]

 

Hi, you've reached the Stud Muffin. Can't answer the phone right now. Why are you even calling? Texting. Wave of the future.

BLEEP.
 

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[skybluejeep]

Yeeeeah. I get that now. I probably should have been paying closer attention.

[For the first time in his life, he didn't figure things out properly. He made his usual jump in logic, but landed completely wrong. And now he's really, properly screwed up.]

I...oh, my god. Rapunzel, I am an even bigger idiot than I ever thought possible. I can't even excuse it anymore. This whole time, I've been thinking there was no way we could last. Because you had your prince to get home to.

[watcheslanterns]

Stiles...

[For a moment it sounds like she's going to be comforting or reassuring.]

That is really, really stupid! [Well, so much for that.]

[skybluejeep]

Yup.

[He slumps forward again, elbows on knees, forehead planted on the heels of his palms.]

I'm gonna go get a big neon sign. It'll blink on and off over my head. Just the words "Total Idiot" on repeat all day long, flashing everybody I come in contact with.

[watcheslanterns]

I just...I don't understand. If that's what you've been thinking all this time, then why did you let things go as far as they did with us...?

[skybluejeep]

[Now that's a trickier question to answer. And he actually thinks first before speaking. It's time to really make this clear. Because he knows they're coming at this from two very different perspectives.]

Because I really do like you. I mean, I really do. Whenever you learn something new, and you light up so brightly? It makes my heart skip a beat. I mean that. I want to be around you, I like you, you're amazing.

But...Rapunzel, we really haven't gotten all that far.

[watcheslanterns]

Stiles...everything is far for me. You're the first person I've ever done anything like that with.

[skybluejeep]

Yeah, I know. And I do respect that, which is why I never tried to take it anywhere you were uncomfortable with.

I guess...I guess it boils down to the fact that I'm...god, okay. I'm gonna say it and please don't hit me. I'm a teenage boy who's trying very hard not to make his girlfriend go someplace sexy! That's difficult. Okay?

[watcheslanterns]

[That stung, and it shows in her expression.]

I wasn't enough then. Is that why you kissed Derek?

[skybluejeep]

No!

[Damn it. Now he really feels rotten.]

No. Not at all. Rapunzel...I saved his life. Like, three or four times. I really care about him. And...and I really care about you! And I don't...I can't figure this out. And like I said, I'm an idiot.

[watcheslanterns]

[Quietly, she stands up, avoiding looking at him again.]

Then you should take the time to figure it out, Stiles.

[skybluejeep]

[He doesn't protest that. In fact, he bows his head and nods in agreement.]

...Yeah. I should. I'm...I'm sorry, Rapunzel.

[watcheslanterns]

[She holds out her hand, inviting him to take it, but still keeps looking ahead.]

[skybluejeep]

[He takes her hand without hesitation, and squeezes it tightly. Yeah, he's definitely got feelings for her, even now.]

[watcheslanterns]

[She squeezes back and speaks softly.]

Figure it out Stiles. Don't make people...or yourself...hurt like this again.

[skybluejeep]

...Okay.

[He is squeezing her hand like he'll never let go.]

I...I like both boys and girls. That's a big deal for me. Here and back home. I'm worried about that. It's a horrible thing where I'm from. Everybody calls bisexual people greedy. Everybody hates bisexuals where I'm from. I'm not gonna lie, Punz. Where I'm from, people who identify as bisexual are hated. A lot. And I'm afraid of it.

[watcheslanterns]

[She doesn't move, can't move really.]

I don't hate you Stiles. I'm angry because of what you did. Not who you did it with. You should be happy with whoever you decide...but know what you're doing when you do it. Be sure of it.

[skybluejeep]

You have every right to be angry.

[He's still staring at his knees, totally hating himself.]

I...I seriously never wanted to hurt you. You know that, right?

[watcheslanterns]

[She nods.]

Just a stupid choice, right?

[skybluejeep]

[He frowns at that, and shakes his head.]

You? No. You were never a stupid choice. But...neither was Derek. I...I might act on bad impulses...but I never act on bad feelings. I really care about you.

[watcheslanterns]

No. I mean kissing Derek when you were...well, when you were dating me.

[skybluejeep]

Oh. Yeah. Yeah, that was a really bad choice.

...If it helps? I'm one hundred percent sure that I'm not gonna run into his arms after this. He'll probably never speak to me again. So...you can feel pretty good about my utter horribleness. He'll never speak to me again.

[watcheslanterns]

[She squeezes his hand again.]

I really don't think that's true. When you've figured things out...you should try talking to him Like this with me.

[skybluejeep]

[He laughs bitterly at that.]

Punz, honey. I know you believe the best in everybody. And that's one of the reasons I adore you.

But please, believe me when I say that Derek Hale would sooner kill me than even consider being around me. Even as a friend. He hates me. And he has for ages. I have as much of a chance of flapping my arms and flying to the moon as I have of him wanting to be affectionate with me. Okay? That's why I say I'm an idiot. I ruined us for no chance at all, I realize that now. I'd have a better chance getting with Asti, the giant turtle we live on. He'd love me before Derek ever did.

[watcheslanterns]

[She's quiet because right now it's just hard to be optimistic for a relationship that pretty much doomed her own. But some part of her still is.]

It doesn't have to be today. Or anytime soon, really. Just, try someday. [Finally she peeks down at him.]

For me?

[skybluejeep]

[He listens to that, and rubs his hands over his face again.]

...No. I won't. Because of you. Because I won't hurt you any more. I've always known I'm gonna end up alone. It's better if I do now. Especially now.